oh nway, just to add, good luck kwa wif all ur bball trainings for ur milo cup! im sure PM kwa will be able to juggle ur studies and training well just like how u'll juggle ur politics and family in the future! hahahaha! ok dont kill me..
let's go watch xmen 3 together k... everyone says its good! so we shall be more hip for once and watch an ah lian movie! hahaha..
and rainbow was so naughty just now! she bit me while i was changing their water! argh..must send her for taming lessons!
debbooorrrraaahhhh
OH AND ONG ENG SIN I HEARD U WERE SUPPOSED TO BLOG!! HOW CAN U GO BACK ON UR WORDS?!??!?! WHAT IS THIS HUH.
WHERE HAVE ALL YOUR MORALS GONE TOO?!?!?WHERE!!?
haha well over the hedge was not bad! and the racoon is RJ, not ARJAY! we thought it was arjay too..but when the acknowledgements came out at the end of the movie, it wrote RJ! so weird! and i suppose cartoon movies CAN be nice too, despite finding nemo leaving a bad impression on me...BUT i still wanna watch da vinci code!!! any takers??
some pics to share!
hmm and regarding views of pple's acceptance and liking...haha i suppose all of us would hope, in the ideal situation, for everyone to like us, and no one to hate us. aiyoh but all along i've not really cared what pple thought la, as in, even if they hate me (of course hopefully no one feels that way), i wouldn't be bothered leh...its good and bad in a sense, good as in you won't get affected, but bad as in, like wad ouou said, there could be an inherent flaw in you that makes the person feel so irksome towards you. BUT THEN AGAIN, if only one person feels that way, then it could just be the person's flaw on her/his part, right!
haha then i suppose the whole idea is just to take a very relaxed view on things around us! it's often easy to say and difficult to carry out, but we can usually control our mind...
and let me share some knowledge here!! (haha no, show-off in fact)..there's this philosopher person called Sigmund Freud, and basically he studies the mind and comes out with a lot of theories regarding what we do la...go google him!! it's quite interesting...erm, like he says desire and sex(!!) governs all of us in what we do, not in the erotic sense la, but the things we do is actually powered by the desire or sth like that...
aiyah ok i am not making much sense here...i'm v boreddd!!!
AND ONG ENG SIN!!! YOUR 10PM PROMISE!!!
as always,
-tyz-
my 2 cents worth...
okie so i guess it's MY TURN now right? haha... yeah deb, the porcupines were really cute esp the babies one! and yeah HAMMIE is the next cutest in terms of looks... but he's really wacky esp after he drank caffeine! haha... i know there's a nice movie coming up called SHE'S THE MAN!!! anyone wana watch? it's a trashy show but i guess it's good for unwinding... anyway, i went to sch for past two days... shall really get down to massive mugging soon!!!
yeah so as deb was saying about people and opinions... i was esp troubled in sec 1 / 2 by this problem i guess... i wanted everyone to like me so much so i became a lil over-sensitive... for everything i do, i was so cautious that i wld ask myself wld i b offending anyone or sth liddat... i mean it's good to be considerate but not to the extent of so mindful... yeah then my mum told me that we can't always expect everyone to like us... (okie i m not sure if i am addressing wat deb wrote but i guess it's more of a what i hav gone through kind of thing) eventually, i learnt to let go... and emphasised wat others think of us... yeah i guess in some way, the world is superficial! cox as deb says, we are made up of wat people think of us instead of who we really are deep inside... only fated people will know you well enough and understand you... bottomline, my stand is that as long as we feel comfortable with ourselves and with the support of our loved ones, that's sufficient... and to make us feel better, we shld jus obliterate the negativity...
yeah that's more or less what i wan to say... hmmmmm yesterday as in 29 may was my mum's birthday! but there wasn't really any celebration... i guess our family don really give any significance to birthdays though i always emphasise mine and my sis will take note of hers too! we only eat mian xian with eggs on our (including my mum's and dad's) chinese bdaes every year... is my family very traditional? i think so... haha...
anyway, JIAYOU to everyone! START MUGGING NOW so that WE WON't REGRET LATER!!! ( i am just trying to motivate myself) haha... GO GO GO!!! jiayou kwa for your milo CUP!!!!! :)
love,
*bin :)
muahaha the founder of this blog is finally here to post her LONG-AWAITED entry!! :D
hmmm nothing much to write about actually since we meet up pretty often already..ahh im stuck already..just felt like posting sth! haha..dont really feel like talking about school cos it'll link to unhappy stuff and im not supposed to think about unhappy stuff anymore!
i dunno if u call it maturity, but i think i've really matured a little..from all the stupid unhappy stuff..now im so much better at blocking out stuff that would have actually affected me for the whole day and perhaps days after..which is really really bad i must say..and now i look back and find myself actually stupid for letting myself get bothered to such extents by really really small stuff that no one else in the world would probably care about..i guess i care a lot about how others think of me..cos in a way it reflects who we really are, or at least what kind of person we are portraying to the rest of the world..so even though just one person may find this very negative aspect of me, it shows that i AM somewhat displaying this flaw..so i quite believe that it is people's opinions and impressions of us that make up who we are..it doesnt make a difference if we're actually someone else inside..cos in life what matters is what's on the outside, that people can see and interact with and form judgements on.
ok my point was..im not so affected by knowing that people do have negative opinions of me..or least if these people are not important in my life..i used to live by this theory, and maybe i still do, that i dont need everyone to like me, but i'll feel very bothered if someone actually dislikes me..and has something against me..cos it reflects something very repugnant about me in the first place..
ya but now im trying to follow my happy resolutions, of being happy! by not letting myself get affected, being more gracious and forgiving and thus not getting angry or irritated...and thus being a person with a character i can be proud of! and remind myself of my other blessings, which include YOU ALL, whenever im on the brink of getting affected! haha...i think its most depressing when u start to feel negative about urself..at least it works that way for me..
ok this is such a self-centred post but i dont care! i like to write about MYSELF cannot ar! hahahha...write more another time...must keep my entries focused u see! ok its getting unfocused already so i shall stop HERE.
BYE (oops!)
p.s: its my daddy's birthday today, so we splurged a bit and had buffet dinner at hotel phoenix hehe..and the dinner made me really happy cos i felt it was time well-spent! i think being wif our family just lifts our spirits in inexplicable ways..there's just this natural assurance and serenity about it..but i feel very bad..cos im always very rude...haizz must change must change!
p.p.s: hammie from over the hedge is cute! i dont really like the racoon though..that arjay or sth..i tot he was cute and wimpy at first..budden he became too manly and smart for my liking..the baby hedgehogs were sooo cute too! im gonna download pictures of them!
p.p.p.s: yin wei ai suo yi ai by nicholas tse is damn nice! i just downloaded it! and i looked at some of his pics and i still find him very shuai! AHH! i dont have bad taste ok.
okok enough! still a self-centred entry though..haha!
eeks so mushy, wad wanna see us every day (in red words) somemore, oeh!! hahahaah
i know i'm supposed to start studying after giving myself a compulsory break for the past 2 days, but i can't bring myself to!! ahhh...haha ok shall go draw up my study plan after this...ya and to echo your thoughts oeh, my teachers (and parents too) have been emphasising how these few mths and the a levels cld essentially be the most important phase in our academic life...which is true la, like last time, we could do average-ly for psle or o levels and we cld always "pick ourselves up" after that and do well for the next major exam. but this time, there's no next time. and this determines our uni path, and later, our careers for the rest of our lives! oh dear i better stop instilling fear in everyone...hehe BECAUSE THIS IS WHAT THE PARENTS AND TEACHERS ALWAYS SAY BEFORE ANY MAJOR EXAM.
so we better be good girls and revise the tested topics for the coming common tests/block tests darn well so that we won't have much problem with these topics the next time we need to revise for prelims! haha BUT OF COURSE, we shouldn't keep studying with no play, and i suggest a day out at the beach or sth!! haaha if u all don't mind...to like sort of relax and RECHARGE which is really important for the next 1.5 terms ahead...hehe...
AIYAH WHY AM I BEING SUCH A WET BLANKET AND REMINDING EVERYONE OF STUPID EXAMS WHEN IT'S THE HOLIDAYS AND WE ARE SUPPOSED TO BE RESTING ANYWAY
yes and speaking of spending time with your mum, i feel extremely guilty that i haven't been spending much time with my grandparents, especially so when i'm not all that busy to not be able to spare that few hrs a week with them too...then yesterday as i was at my grandma's house wrapping dumplings, i felt really bad...coz she only like slept a few hrs for the whole week to prepare the ingredients for the 200 plus dumplings we were going to wrap...then i was thinking she didn't have to go through all that trouble at all coz we could easily buy dumplings, but it was sort of a form of expression of love and tradition on her part to keep up with making them yr after yr la..and coz my sis and i may go australia aft the a levels to visit our aunt, my mum was asking my grandmother is she wanted to go with us too, to visit her daughter. and my grandmother said (rather nonchalantly in hokkien) "aiyah, december then say la, also dunno if i will be around in december", then i really felt very bad and sad la! aiya ok la shall not inundate u all with my weird musings liao...have enough rest k everyone, and jiayou kwa for your milo cup!!!
as always,
-tyz-
WHERES EVERYONE??? this blog has been stagnant for super long..this place looks quite dead now..hahah bet deBRA is heartbroken..guess everyone has been pretty busy for the part few weeks though..hmm how was the miniparty at debs house?? my steamboat dinner was actually quite fun!:)anyway june hols are here..which means its mugging time..and though they arent exactly much holidays to speak of, im really quite thankful for them..our physics teacher was talking to us in our last tutorial (in one of those rare but much loved sessions where she doesnt do any work but just chitchats with us) and said that this june hols would be one of the last periods of time we would ever be able to do revision for the A levels at our own pace again..cos next term will be nth but a hellish period of endless revision, lessons that stretch till4 or 5 each day and piles of work..according to her it will be impossible to find our own time to do revision again..hmmm..the a levels are closer than they seem to be..its really kind of scary just thinking abt it and how the reality is drawing closer each day..and i cant help too thinking abt the future and wad i ought to do..i do noe in the 6 months of free time after As i wanna get a job of some kind..i dunno wad..teaching in a pri sch or giving tuition..or fulfilling my long held but nv fulfilled wish of becoming a guide at the ACM (asian civilisations museusm, in case u all are wondering) which i came so close to but didnt..or anything else of this nature that is meaningful, and can somewhat build up confidence n give me a greater sense of self worth..(may i not fail miserably anymore in anything else i try to do)..haha and in those 6 mths
i wanna see u all every day!!! hahahaha...we ought to plan a list of activities to do!!! mmm and i wana pei my mum more too..shes always wistfully mentioning after every hols pass that she doesnt get to do so and so or go there and there with me..and she wants me to teach her piano!!! incredulous as it sounds considering how lan4 i am...but i guess it will be fun...
haiz think i should stop planning abt wad to do after the As la when they arent even here yet!!! haiz jiayou for all ur mugging!!!
love,
oeh
of sports and games
kwa! actually i must say that you've done very well already...as in really...because how many people can join a cca, and a competitive sports cca for that matter, and yet represent the school and stuff...haha bet you are experiencing some very bad after-competition effects now...like i see some of my classmates in those competitive sports ccas...they'll be training their guts out throughout the yr...but once competition ends, it seems as though they no longer have the passion and energy for anything else...perhaps that's what makes sports so attractive, the effort, the sweat, the time, the injuries, the change in emotions, the desire to succeed...haha i cannot be compared to you at all, coz my wushu is really sports on a very low commitment level, and it's rarely a team effort too...but i do know that a team effort thing, the cohesion and stuff, is something that no other cca can bring about...hope you're feeling better anyway...perhaps your milo cup in june is like a way to sort of ease off all the energy that's been like invested in bball all this while la...like sort of a less important competition that's going to ease you off into the mugger modes we all have to switch to come term 3...
haha, yayy anyway will get to see all of you tmr (or in fact today) at bin's funfair...haha just realised i was sounding very formal in front but was just typing all that i felt...i'm sure bin felt a bit of the competitive sports feeling too when u were in softball...haha...but it's true la, like since after wushu comp, i can't get the energy to do things anymore because i don't like the idea of possibly not engaging in wushu anymore after 6 years of effort...and that's why i keep wanting to go back for more, to taste it in like smaller bits, and not forget the savoury feel of performing, competing, and basically wushu in all its facets....haha kwa do you feel that way too?
hmm and the term is ending...we only have a week left before hols...guess we could organise mass mugging sessions, though i'd suggest us doing math or practising questions and stuff during these sessions coz it's always not easy in trying to memorise content when studying in grps :S
haha ok la got headache liao....v v v v sleepy...it's nearly 3am! haha ok good nitez pple
and bin, ouou, oeh!! dun forget to update!!
as always,
-tyz-
expectations
played 3rd and 4th play offs today. everyone was in this kind of high mood, knowing that e opponent was quite an easy one.. i guess i wasn't very high, i knew i'd miss e way things were, e routine wed and sat ccas.. dunno y i didn't feel this way so much for guides last time. mayb cos bball has been tonnes of ups and downs for me. from 1yr ago not knowing whether we'd continue, to injuring my leg, to trying to perform at training, to learning how to play a new position and everything else... e match today was kind of unexpected to.. e way we let nyjc narrow e score to just a difference of 3 pts cos everyone just thot we'd take it easy today. luckily we managed to pull away and win. glad coach let me play a while today, think she intended to let everyone play a bit of e last match but we cldn't create a safe margin early enuf to allow that. i told myself yesterday nite that given e little playing time i get, i'd sieze e opportunity and play well during wateva little time i was given. but despite wanting to defend well, make gd passes etc, i made a few mistakes which made coach substitute me.. felt bad knowing she trusted me enuf to give me e chance, and that i wasted it like that. i know full well they were mistakes.. so was kind of disappointed with myself. started thinking mayb learning e game at jc is really too late, experience counts for too much. i've got another less serious season coming up in june.. milo cup.. i wonder if it's really worth all e time i spend going down for training. i've got to convince myself that i've tried my best, that i love e game that's y i'm playing, it's hard to do so everytime u put pressure on yourself to do well and fail to do so..
a new season begins tmr, mugging season. bball in jc was memorable. thanks to all my classmates who gave me tonnes of support during my season, those who came to support, those who smsed, really appreciated it. thanks to u gals too for e encouragement for e matches to come everytime we meet up.
just needed somewhere to complain. i'm fine.. got to get down to doing this gp compre i've put off for ages.
luv u guys.
charl
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too lazy to think of a title.. ultimate laziness.. supposed to b doing hw, cos i've really piled up a ton of hw with all e competitions. sch was super generous and let us off at 9am to rest and eat till 11.30am before taking e coach to e competition venue for a match at 1. not that i mind, it feels gd to b slacking off sch, but after this has been the way for bout twice a week for a month, e sch rhythm and routine seems to be all off and as a result, haven't been in a mood for hw for bout 1 month. there was e excitement, anxiety of looking forward to e next match, it was distracting, but it didn't seem to matter.. the hope of an unexpected outcome was enuf to sustain me, and prob e whole team too. lost e semis on monday to vj. we didn't play as perfectly as we had hoped to, but vj had more stamina, they had more pple to substitute, they won by a fair margin, i guess they deserved it. think our mistake was in e quarterfinals, losing to rj, but i won't doubt dat my team mates gave their best nonetheless. proud of em. oh well, 3rd and 4th play-offs are tmr, after dat season wld have ended.
no doubt there's a feeling of nostalgia thinking that a normal, saturday training was actually our last training.. but also glad that life will be getting back to a more normal routine. back to studying and catching up wif hw if i can get back in e mood for it. ok, it's not really a choice, i have to. looking back, i guess e team has come a long way, from e possibility of being disbanded after last yr's season due to lack of pple..
ying.. i got no training this sat, both morn and evening, so can prob go down to e funfair for a while. usually morn better right? will u be busy running a stall or smthing? when will b a good time for u? let me know k.. and we can go for dinner together before dance nite too. think it shld be gd, tickets are sold out already.
deb and ouou, how was chalet? fun?hope to c u guys soon, meet up, go for fun fair if u have time to spare? if not jia you wif e studying..
mid week already, keep goin for e rest of e week everyone!
luv, charl
hello
hello everyone..im finally blogging again!! din come online just yesterday and was shocked to see the sudden increase in the number of posts..haha stupid me struggled to log in for a full minute just now until i realised that i had signed in as "iwannasee
ueveryday" instead of "iwannasee
youeveryday"..hmm anyway deb and tyz will be at the chalet now..hope u are enjoying urselves!! and that its not pouring there as it is now here..
to bin: its good to have a mind of ur own!!! dun be blind followers like them..its ridiculous that everyone has to do the same thing and follow each other even for sth as simple as lunch..i dun have much zi ge to say this, i noe, but all i want to say is this: having to follow and stick to certain things just becos others do so is suffocatingly painful..esp if its against ur will..i am guilty of some of things u speak of: of not daring to speak up at the right time, or breaking away frm the norm etc..and i hate myself for being so cowardly sometimes..i wanna change, but i dun noe how..there a re times when i desperately seek some kind of personality change..someone once told me abt this woman who so badly wanted to change herself that she checked herself each time she did or spoke sth and made a concsious effort to do the direct opposite..and many many long and painful years later, she became a completely different person!! it was one of the most incredulous stories ive ever heard, but my fren claimed its true..still, i dun think its possible and i dun think i should try going against my instincts or anything like that..i guess now its abt how to make the best of my life with wad ive been given
..instead of hoping to me one of the many many pple i admire..
(but how do i make the best out of anything when it seems ive nth to begin with?) haiz anyway ive been slacking my whole precious holiday away again doing silly stuff..like just now i suddenly reached down to my bed drawer and spontaneously pulled out a few of those children's books i had loved reading when i was young...think i whiled away a good 2 hours or so reading them..i dun noe why but i seem to find pleasure regressing into the past..there is sth so comforting and fascinating abt those books and their idealistic storylines where the big bad bullies get their just deserts and the good kindhearted ppl ultimately truimph..and where everything is divided distictly into black and white, right and wrong ,good and bad..like this story abt this weird gnome called pink whistle who goes around "putting things right" and helping all the good kind hearted children defeat all the nasty mean bullies..even in another series of books abt boarding sch life (st clares by enid blython) supposedly for a little more mature readers it is the same..the sch miraculously is dominated by "good girls" who are largely kind and truthful and funny and nice while there will be a few bag eggs who are spiteful or boastful or mean who will become outcasts..and at the end of the story they will inevitably be 1)expelled 2) get a rude shock 3)reform..im not mocking the books..i love them..but how amamingly unrealistic they are!! if only the world was like that; if pple can all be so simply classified as good and bad..cant rmb where i heard this but i couldnt get it out of my mind when i heard it: "beside a heart of evil can reside a heart of compassion" or sth like that..and i think its so true..ive met some ppl who are so frightenly complex..who can seem so good and yet do bad..i really really do wonder how they feel deep down; if they ever have a nagging conscience or if they do feel what they do or say..im perplexed by myself too..finding it hard to understand the weird negative emotions of anger or indifference i feel at times..finding it hard to understand who the real me is..
ahh. im rambling and crapping. but my mood is odd these days, like a sin x curve, as i said before..swinging btw periods of sudden bursts of optimism and periods of fear and depression..and periods where i feel complete numbness..perhaps the most frightening of all.
i miss u all terribly..
hope u all have a great wkend:)
oeh.
lost and found...
ello everyone!!! am so glad that there are so many new responses... i am kinda bored now... haha... and i m home alone with my sis now... it's so conincidental that tyz and my parents are away ard the same time though her parents are returning earlier... haha and yeah my relatives like my god mother and aunt are calling my handphone to check on me... i feel so cared for even though my parents are not with me... so yeah i am very touched! anyway, i think these 10 days are good training for me to be independent... it's time i learnt how to get used to being alone with myself... and doing stuff myself instead of always relying on people esp my mum to get things done like breakfast and dinner... at least i will know how it wld b like if i grow up... i always used to think that i will buy a hse and leave all by myself even before marriage... and mayb with a close friends (u all)... haha... cox hk serials always illustrate these scenarios... but it's just a cool thing i thought i wld do at that point in time when i grow up! sorry if i am digressing...
heats was a superb experience though i didn't perform fantastically well! still, i treasure this (to me) once in a life-time opportunity to run with my classmates and for my class...
i came hm at ard 10 cox went for my sch's concert... yeah i think it's really reflects very badly on someone who stood the other party up! it's so irresponsible! i wld definitely be very angry esp since the reason she gave was rather lousy and unconvincing from my point of view... but it's no use getting angry at her... cox i think she wldn't even care in the first place since she decided to forgo the concert... yeah so jus don care bout her already! i am just glad that my jc friends are rather trustworthy... though i think there's sth bout them which i really dislike... they are timid as in they do not dare to voice their opinions openly and it's irritating at times... i jus lose my patience with them (i get impatient that's all)! though i feel guilty thereafter... perhaps it's their character and the environment which they have been immersed in... it's like they have doubts but they are afraid of asking the teachers... and they like to do things together... like wat everyone does is standardised... e.g no 1 else will eat other stuff for lunch if they decide on a particular dish... i get quite pissed at them! no one breaks free... and i am tired of sticking to them at times! cox i have my own ideas and preferences... i dunno... mayb it's only me... but i know i shld just do what i want without bothering about them too much cox ultimately it's my life and i hav the right to do wat i want with it! and yeah we don really share common interests... so sometimes i don really hav much stuff to talk to them about... it's mostly mundane everyday stuff... last time i was really unhappy cox i cldn't accept them... i just feel that they are not the kind of friends i wld want... (sorry for being mean here) but i guess gradually, i've gotten used to the way of life... with them around... though i agree with deb, i sometimes very much prefer to be alone and yet, at the same time worry if i look weird to others if i am alone and not with any friends... (i noe i shldn't care too much bout the way how others [esp people whom i dunno] view me but i can't help it at times...) though i am slowly forcing myself to spend time alone with myself or rather people who share my common interests and concerns despite being in diff classes (my gp mates and one interact friend)... sometimes, i wished that i was in their class cox they are all in the same class but at the same time, i tell myself to stop thinking about such impossible stuff cox it will only make me feel worse... but yeahh time is really the best medicine! it makes me feel indifferent and immune... overall, they are nice people but with some flaws here and there...
nevertheless, am utmost grateful that u all are there for me! as the blog title suggests... u all are my best friends for life! :)
another point is that i dunno why... but i jus can't help but find myself becoming increasingly selfish esp this year... i don offer my help as readily because i am afraid... not exactly sure what i am worried about... but jus this feeling of uneasiness but then again, i feel guilty for not helping... ultimate irony issn't it? and i jus block out as much of that guilt as possible by finding excuses for myself... i am not sure if that's the correct way i shld do it... similar to tyz's predicament , things i do are becoming more and more solely for myself... i only care about what happens to me... simply put, i can't b bothered about others these days! i find this very worrying cox i definitely don wan to grow up being such a person but i feel that with every passing day, i am... is this what growing up at this detached place called jc does to u? i dunno and i am not sure when i can find these answers that i need... i really wished that at this point in time, things were as simple as they used to be and i was the same old si ying i felt i was...
okie my eyes are closing and i shld b going off to bed... this is a LONG entry! how do we change the font? hehe... there used to be this heading availabe at the posting page where we can change the font freely right?
to deb and pee budd: enjoy ur chalet! :)
to oeh and kwa: enjoy ur weekend! :)
oh ya... one more thing, will u all be free to come to my sch's funtasia (funfair) on 20 may (sat) frm 10.30am - 5pm... it's free and easy jus pop in anytime... though i will b in sch early to prepare for college day concert... it's in the morning this year... then yeah kwa's going for hc dance concert at night... so mayb we can all go together... cox oeh and i don mind going for the concert... but i know deb and tyz having their gp common test on the next coming wed (really soon) so it mite not be such a feasible idea... anyway, jus respond on the tagboard or sth k! any response is fine... cya guys soon! :)
love love,
*bin
It is not how much we have, but how much we enjoy, that makes happiness. ~ Charles Spurgeon
haha in line with all the nice quotes and stuff...anyway i muz thank everyone for their concern ytd though it's really nothing big...haha but it made me realise how transitory and temporary pple can be la...like i believe none of u wld have backed out of a concert we are supposed to attend together, coz it's more of a responsibility and care that we have for one another :)
and dismal as it sounds, i can't help but feel that a lot of pple are making use of one another as a stepping stone and actually secretly dislike others (ok this is a little extreme)... :( and it's even more so in jc, since everyone is preoccupied with their own busy lives and don't have time or don't even care abt stuff such as friendships (except their boy-girl relationships) la...like everyone (and me included) seemingly becomes more self-centred, and everything is about ME, MINE and MYSELF, nothing about YOU YOURS and all that...hehe or is it juz rj? or maybe juz a pessimistic perception of mine...
yupz and i was talking (gossiping) to chua in the lib too, and we agreed that we are all more hardened now, and very jaded and indifferent towards jc life...like there's no form of attachment for pple and the sch...haha
waa sleeeepy...ahh i really wanna have a dinner soon!! when do u all propose! sorry i can't go out this week coz of the curfew thingy we have to self-exercise (omg it's like almost every uncle and aunty are calling to make sure we are safe and stuff..which is really nice of them tho..)
hehe i sort of feel a sort of gloominess hanging around everyone...but a lot of times, happiness, or unhappiness for the matter, are defined by our own minds and how we perceive it to be!! so we shd try to think positive!!
HAHA YA LA EVERYONE NOES THAT, IT'S HOW TO PUT IT INTO ACTION...
and ouou i was the one who taught u the 'post and comment options' thing one!! HUMPH!!!
happy long weekend y'all!! =)
as always,
-tyz-
The gift of true friendship is that it takes us by the hand and reminds us we are not alone in the journey
hehe yay im so happy to see MY blog being actively used! haha then ouou will say im trying to take credit again..she's just jealous cant all of you see???? muahahaha
oh nway, bout technical stuff, to let your entries be in the correct chronological order i.e. the latest entry on top, u all have to adjust the time! like when u're posting, there's a 'Post and Comment Options' at the bottom left corner of the box..click it and set the time and date accordingly!!
okie i've never really experimented wif fonts and colours and stuff before..shall use a nice font for my entry! i know each of us shall settle on a font, so each post by us will be unique! hehe okiee hmmm i shall choose...
Georgia! though i dunno how it'll look cos the font's still the same as im typing now haha..hmmm...just felt like posting...sumhow it makes me feel connected wif u all..even though i dont get an instant response..haha..
nway to kwa and ouou, i've never really experienced this before..but i still felt quite angry and sad for ouou too..i think it'd have spoilt my whole mood for the rest of the day if i was in ouou's shoes..but i guess, i wont hafta face such problems! cos i think for all the concerts i went to, its all wif u all! haha..so nobody will back out on me..
and i agree wif u kwa, in jc, sumhow nothing's ever confirmed, fixed and reliant..i've learnt to be much more independent too..like i dont mind, or even want to sometimes, being alone..its kinda the safest situation to be in..just you and yourself..no need to put up a front or make the effort to maintain conversations when u're simply not in the mood to..cos when u're moody u dont feel like talking, and when u're with people, people who are not ready and willing to hang out wif a moody you, it just puts those around you off..and they rather hang out wif someone else who's more cheery cos it gives them an easier time, than to stick around you, even to do just nothing, just to make sure u're feeling alright..i guess i haven found any new friends like this in jc..so im really really thankful for u all..and i mean it!
anyway, this week im feeling better! i guess since the incident last friday where my attempt to talk failed and hurt me terribly, it kinda convinced me to just let go, move on and really put the friendship behind me..the more i observe the way i behave now, the more i find it similar to how she behaves..and its just funny how much longer i took than her to reach this indifferent stage..so i guess she gave up so much earlier than me..which further reinforces what i should feel now..
its just a weird week..haha maybe i was too used to feeling depressed..now when i feel indifferent i sumhow fee less human?? just like the saying goes, sorrow makes you human...but i guess too much sorrow makes me go crazy too..and what's the point too?? just feel that school is getting monotonous..but perhaps this tells me im not focusing on all the right things in my life after all..its really the simple stuff that i should focus on..like being able to eat dinner wif my parents and watch tv wif them every night..and even doing homework! which i've been neglecting for very long..i keep telling myself to follow these simple yet important principles in life, yet once i get plagued by just one problem, it seems to cloud my vision of everything else and i choose to focus on the problem instead..
nway went to the library wif ouou and charlene chua today..i think the colour of the place we were sitting at was very nice! like orangey yellow...cos the sun was streaming in! :D then that familiarity wif the both of you..so relaxed, peaceful and secure..
oh kwa! the title of your first entry is from that Life is a Gift book u gave me right! hehe okie i shall quote the quote they put for this week! it says...HAHA.. BLESSED ARE THOSE OF US WHOSE LIVES ARE TOUCHED BY PEOPLE WHO CARE! ok i see kwa is at the same week as me! hahaha ok that was even more stupid..who isnt?! nway kwa, i've been diligently logging my everyday happenings in the book! but sometimes got backlog..like today's thursday and i haven written since monday! so i guess gotta write later! haha
odac chalet tmr..guess its gonna be quite fun..got overnight cycling and all..hope i wont feel antosocial and left out! ouou better not abandon me!
bin's and ouou's parents have gone abroad for honeymoons! so they're learning to be more independent at home now..haha ok that was so random..as u can see im just writing anything that comes to my mind..maybe i should stop here..and save you all from more ranting and nonsense! haha...
love u guys sooo much,
deb
heyzzz haha i am gonna abuse this platform to complain...ok i have simmered down a little le la..
so juz now in the aftnoon oeh and i went to deb's hse...then i left at ard 5 plus coz i was supposed to attend harmoc concert with she-whom-shall-not-be-named...i was on my way to j8 coz we were supposed to have dinner together first....then i got the sms: "hey sorry but i stained my skirt so i'm going home to change first..remember to get flowers k?" (or sth along tt line)..so i was slightly disappointed coz i had to have dinner alone...but din really mind...then opened my wallet and i only had a grand total of 4 dollars in notes and a dollar or two worth of coins...so i decided to forego dinner to buy flowers for manyan...and spent the four dollars...and used 1 buck to buy a kaya pastry from delifrance for dinner.....
so i walked back to rj...and it looked weird tt i was walking the reverse direction as everyone else who were going home...but nvm...then i reached the canteen at 7pm (the concert starts at 7.30pm)....and was sitting there feeling quite loser sitting all alone...and lo and behold, at 7.10pm i got an sms from her that her mum refused to let her go out and tt she was very sorry...so wad was i supposed to do! naturally i got v pissed, coz i went thru all the trouble to get flowers, forego dinner, walk back to rj, wait for her and this was the answer i got....i was thus contemplating attending the concert alone or juz going backstage to look for manyan to pass her the flowers...but i got so dejected tt i decided to leave....but then i saw one of my frens and she needed flowers too, so i sold my flowers and surprisingly ticket to her fren too, albeit at a lower price la..but was feeling better then...
and now i'm feeling bad for manyan coz she msged me at ard 8 (supposedly her intermission): "hey hey are u all there? C:" and i totally din noe how to reply her...and so msged her a 3-sms worth of msg explaining...but i'll totally accept it if she's angry coz i noe its all our fault...haiz...
ok i'm feeling much much better now...after all this ranting....thanks for being so concerned everyone... :)
haha and bin not bad for ur heats today...i wanna drink soya bean too!
as always,
-tyz-
my wednesday..
hello!
holiday mood.. got lousy sports day tmr.. desperately feel like ponning, but sch outsmarted us, said they won't accept parents letter tmr.. bleah.. shall go get a chao-ta tan and stone and be anti and read.. seriously, i'd appreciate a late morning at home.. oh well, at least no lessons.
finished sch at 12, nice early day, but had nothing to do till 3, so went to play, or more like try to play, pingpong. but was so noob at it that i think everyone i played wif got pretty bored. cos i told em cannot bully me and do some funny spin thing, so e ball was just goin to and fro in e most monotonous manner.. then 1 classmate tried to teach me to be more pro.. it was quite enlightening, tho i still dun quite noe how to play. then took a nap at class bench cos everybody went off for cca already, and then went for this compulsory for physics s spintronics talk. and since i'm one of e few who for dunno wad reason chose to take physics s in class, ended up going alone, cos e other had cca.. but no dif if i had a fren to go anyway, cos i slept thru most of it. not that it was boring, but was just too quite and cool it e lt. managed to catch e intro and conclusion tho. for those who are interested, my summary is that spintronics is something bout electrons spinning and it holding a lot of future in terms of making all gadgets we have even smaller.. lol. then went for training, where we had a super long debrief on mon's match.. shall just try our best for e next one! doubt i'll be playing but i'll cheer hard :)
ouou, noe exactly how u feel, cos it's happened to me quite a few times too.. and each time i feel so cheated and somehow think that pple in jc are somehow not so reliable, tho they may have 50% of an excuse.. that's y i quite scared to buy sch concert tickets now.. class outing always turn out that i muz beg some pple come wif me cos they irritatingly dun feel like going on e day itself.. sigh.. dat's y everytime i tell myself must be more self reliant, cos most of e time these concerts i actually not dat interested one, then only go cos thot my frens were going.. learnt that i must learn to make decisions independent of others cos if not end up disappointed in e end.. it's bugged me quite a few times before, just that didn't have this place to complain before..lol.. sorry for putting u guys through all this complaining..
looking forward to e long weekend. deb and ouou, enjoy ur chalet!
gd nite, dirty stinky me needs to bathe le..
luv, charl
hey my babesss!! haha omg that sounded so bimboticc....wa had a really bad night last night pia-ing grossly overdue assignments...hahaha BUT NOW I SHALL RELAX A WHILE!!! anywayzz ahh kwa i was asking my class councillors how was the basketball match and they were saying that it was a really close fight and everything and rj only like started winning at the end...then i was like oh dear, which means hc lost...but its ok la, next match vj? are they strong? just thrash them k!! kwa sure can do it one! are u playing the next match?
and waa bin u have heats tmr? haha ya juz take part for the fun of it la!! trackers and stuff are like unbeatable anyway...so might as well juz go there have funnn.....haha all of ur lives are very packed and fulfilling now huh!
argghhh but deb and i have odac chalet this long weekend!! which means there's perpetually no chance for us all to meet up!! unless sun? haiyoooo
haha I ALSO CAN SET UP BLOG TOO WAD!!! praise ouou so much for wad!! hahahahaaaa
oh dearrr very sleeeepppppyyyy....ahhh i wanna meet up for dinnnerrr
haha ok i noe i am really crappy...but this is a mandatory first post from me!!! i will post a looonger one next time!!
haha applying my newly-learnt skill of changing text colour!! we shd take pics!! then i will post them up tooo!!
as always
-tyz-
to all whom it may concern (my darlings)...
haha yeah!!! i am the up next! and the very first person to bloggggggg on tuesday... anyway, today sch was sian as usual... but GP was interesting cox of my teacher! i really like her alot... haha... she's jus inspires and perks me up! well, erm that's so random... yeah tmr's there this 4 X100 m class relay heats going on... i kind of wan to run (do my part for the class) and at the same time, don feel like running (cox i noe i will kinda get thrashed by the trackers and others)... haha... i realise i shldn't care so much abt the outcome ... shld focus more on the process... and since i am running for my class, i shld be proud of myself! okie... jus wish me luck! i'll jus consider it as an experience... on monday, i tried out 100m... and while i was running, it feels as if i was crawling though... the track seemed to be never ending... haha... wonder how i completed my 2.4km...
yeah so this week is a short week cox of nice hol on friday! YAY! :) hope to cya all soon!
logging off to take a bathe and hav my lunch... my stomach's growling...
thanks deb for taking the initiative and effort in setting up this nice blog for us to rant! :)
*bin
we're back!
hey...
as usual, proactive me has set up yet another blog..all the result of MY OWN initiative...
shouldnt all of you learn from me??
nway i missed having the clique blog to look forward to read each time i come online..that's why i set up this one! and obviously, people have mixed reactions towards my intricately chosen blog title..and username..xiaogui was impressed (as usual) by my "haha so cute!!!!" name, while bin (being the ACTING nonchalant pig that she always is) was jealous of my better name-choosing skills than hers (she could only think of the so very cliched THEAWESOMEFIVE), and said in protest, "lol so mushy!".
WA LAO YOU GOT PROBLEM ISSIT!
haha ok sorry im going a bit mad here..my mood's been weird lately..guess u all know why..but im really glad i still have friends in u all..it really really makes my day, trust me. everytime i see u all, i hope we'll never have to go home, or that we could simply meet up everyday! haiz..i keep wanting it to be possible...are u all free enough? i really need u guys... haiss
ok shant spoil our first entry wif sad-sounding stuff..must blog more often k....
ONG ENG SIN YOU'RE NEXT! BETTER POST BY TONIGHT!
oh ya remember to sign off! cos we're all using the same username..
love ya loads,
deb :)
~blessed are those of us whose lives are touched by people who care~
helloz!
muz thank deb for her usual initiative-full self in creating this blog.. i'll def try to post often too.. then we can all keep in contact easily and just blabber on but wat's happening in sch and stuff.. but of course muz still meet up! cos seeing u guys and talking bout anything and everything on my mind wif pple who understand and care to listen always takes loads off my mind.. and even tho everyone is in dif classes and do not exactly know who these classmates, cca-mates, events i'm talking about really are, u guys still listen! one of e few things from sec sch which is still continuous!
this week feels like holiday week. no sch tmr, sports day on thurs (can pon or not? rumoured that it's optional for j2s?) and public hol on fri.. so no mood to really get any work done at e moment. e team played match against rj.. didn't get to play cos we couldn't pull e score apart by a large enuf margin to substitute e main players, but was happy just cheering for e team. were leading by quite a bit in e first half but e score was evened out at 6 min left and eventaully rj won. dat means prob meeting vj in e semis.. but dat's not e only thing.. really touched 2 of my classmates went thru lots of trouble to be excused from 4 hrs of tutorials to come down support e team.. it was quite tough trying to get our ct to let em off. they had to hand in a tut that's quite ahead of time in exchange for going for e match.. so they rushed out e tutorials and really amazed me by turning up! considering how much negotiations they had to do, really grateful for all their effort in coming down, even tho they knew i'd prob not play.. went for home u training in e evening, which was ok i guess, tho i was somehow kinda tired by then, tho i didn't even play.. oh wells.. it was a mentally exhausting day. haha
shall stop all my blabbering.. to ouou, deb, siying and oeh, stay cheerful and c u gals soon!
luv charl
IM NEXT!!!!
haha at the command of deborah, im NEXT in line to blog!! hmm actually ive nth much to say for now but i guess first and foremost must give deb credit for having such initiative and innovativeness and bu-yao-lianess for coming up with this blog, creating such an interesting address and thinking up of such an ahem unusal password respectively!!
haha since ive really nth very intelligent to say right now and i shall just explore some of the formatting functions they have here..
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love
everyone
BIN
DEB
KWA
TYZ
OEH!!!
haha isnt my colour scheme nice!!!
haiz miss u all!! hope to see u all soon..
promise i'll contribute sth more substantial next time;)
oeh
