hmmm nothing much to write about actually since we meet up pretty often already..ahh im stuck already..just felt like posting sth! haha..dont really feel like talking about school cos it'll link to unhappy stuff and im not supposed to think about unhappy stuff anymore!
i dunno if u call it maturity, but i think i've really matured a little..from all the stupid unhappy stuff..now im so much better at blocking out stuff that would have actually affected me for the whole day and perhaps days after..which is really really bad i must say..and now i look back and find myself actually stupid for letting myself get bothered to such extents by really really small stuff that no one else in the world would probably care about..i guess i care a lot about how others think of me..cos in a way it reflects who we really are, or at least what kind of person we are portraying to the rest of the world..so even though just one person may find this very negative aspect of me, it shows that i AM somewhat displaying this flaw..so i quite believe that it is people's opinions and impressions of us that make up who we are..it doesnt make a difference if we're actually someone else inside..cos in life what matters is what's on the outside, that people can see and interact with and form judgements on.
ok my point was..im not so affected by knowing that people do have negative opinions of me..or least if these people are not important in my life..i used to live by this theory, and maybe i still do, that i dont need everyone to like me, but i'll feel very bothered if someone actually dislikes me..and has something against me..cos it reflects something very repugnant about me in the first place..
ya but now im trying to follow my happy resolutions, of being happy! by not letting myself get affected, being more gracious and forgiving and thus not getting angry or irritated...and thus being a person with a character i can be proud of! and remind myself of my other blessings, which include YOU ALL, whenever im on the brink of getting affected! haha...i think its most depressing when u start to feel negative about urself..at least it works that way for me..
ok this is such a self-centred post but i dont care! i like to write about MYSELF cannot ar! hahahha...write more another time...must keep my entries focused u see! ok its getting unfocused already so i shall stop HERE.
BYE (oops!)
p.s: its my daddy's birthday today, so we splurged a bit and had buffet dinner at hotel phoenix hehe..and the dinner made me really happy cos i felt it was time well-spent! i think being wif our family just lifts our spirits in inexplicable ways..there's just this natural assurance and serenity about it..but i feel very bad..cos im always very rude...haizz must change must change!
p.p.s: hammie from over the hedge is cute! i dont really like the racoon though..that arjay or sth..i tot he was cute and wimpy at first..budden he became too manly and smart for my liking..the baby hedgehogs were sooo cute too! im gonna download pictures of them!
p.p.p.s: yin wei ai suo yi ai by nicholas tse is damn nice! i just downloaded it! and i looked at some of his pics and i still find him very shuai! AHH! i dont have bad taste ok.
okok enough! still a self-centred entry though..haha!
posted by the best friends for life.. @ 9:21 PM
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