searching for some direction
sch's started and suddenly 5 weeks have gone by already. curriculum-wise i'd say it's quite similar to jc. cos there's no bidding and what not (which i hear is a big advantage cos bidding for modules is apparently v stressful). so i just follow my timetable, which is pretty standard cos everyday starts at 8.30, and everyone goes for e same lecture, so it's just like a very big jc class.so after this not-v-big transition, things shld be going v smoothly. but somehow life doesn't seem as cheerful and bright as my initial jc days with the babes, mayb it's cos i haven't found any really close frens. i'm really glad that i know quite a few pple from orientation, and they're really nice pple.. but 'knowing pple' is quite different from really knowing them. u walk into lecture and walk out 4 hrs later and that's it. i'm happy to go home. there's no one really to drag to e toilet or e canteen with, or just to be myself. everyone else seems to know everyone else already so mayb i don't see e point in interfering with things, or may i'm just quieter by nature (tho i don't think so with familiar frens), mayb i've just not made any effort on my part..
most lectures are rather interesting content-wise. but memorizing and learning is another thing. it seems impossible to rmb all e nerves and vessels and muscles and bones for anat (yet somehow everyone gets thru it eventually, few mention e process).. and pple ard seem to be so current with lectures it does get a bit overwhelming. so by right i shld be wanting to study with all these pple ard, and i know i really shld, but by left i have no mood to. there seems to be little motivation.
i better stop here before this becomes a complaining, depressing, whining post. there are always things to be thankful for, like my really helpful snr, gd health, safety on e road (won't deny i had a few near misses tho).. as e song goes "count your blessings name them one by one".. must find a way to remain optimistic.. gtg
posted by the best friends for life.. @ 6:39 PM
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