expectations
played 3rd and 4th play offs today. everyone was in this kind of high mood, knowing that e opponent was quite an easy one.. i guess i wasn't very high, i knew i'd miss e way things were, e routine wed and sat ccas.. dunno y i didn't feel this way so much for guides last time. mayb cos bball has been tonnes of ups and downs for me. from 1yr ago not knowing whether we'd continue, to injuring my leg, to trying to perform at training, to learning how to play a new position and everything else... e match today was kind of unexpected to.. e way we let nyjc narrow e score to just a difference of 3 pts cos everyone just thot we'd take it easy today. luckily we managed to pull away and win. glad coach let me play a while today, think she intended to let everyone play a bit of e last match but we cldn't create a safe margin early enuf to allow that. i told myself yesterday nite that given e little playing time i get, i'd sieze e opportunity and play well during wateva little time i was given. but despite wanting to defend well, make gd passes etc, i made a few mistakes which made coach substitute me.. felt bad knowing she trusted me enuf to give me e chance, and that i wasted it like that. i know full well they were mistakes.. so was kind of disappointed with myself. started thinking mayb learning e game at jc is really too late, experience counts for too much. i've got another less serious season coming up in june.. milo cup.. i wonder if it's really worth all e time i spend going down for training. i've got to convince myself that i've tried my best, that i love e game that's y i'm playing, it's hard to do so everytime u put pressure on yourself to do well and fail to do so..a new season begins tmr, mugging season. bball in jc was memorable. thanks to all my classmates who gave me tonnes of support during my season, those who came to support, those who smsed, really appreciated it. thanks to u gals too for e encouragement for e matches to come everytime we meet up.
just needed somewhere to complain. i'm fine.. got to get down to doing this gp compre i've put off for ages.
luv u guys.
charl
posted by the best friends for life.. @ 9:11 PM
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