The gift of true friendship is that it takes us by the hand and reminds us we are not alone in the journey
hehe yay im so happy to see MY blog being actively used! haha then ouou will say im trying to take credit again..she's just jealous cant all of you see???? muahahahaoh nway, bout technical stuff, to let your entries be in the correct chronological order i.e. the latest entry on top, u all have to adjust the time! like when u're posting, there's a 'Post and Comment Options' at the bottom left corner of the box..click it and set the time and date accordingly!!
okie i've never really experimented wif fonts and colours and stuff before..shall use a nice font for my entry! i know each of us shall settle on a font, so each post by us will be unique! hehe okiee hmmm i shall choose...
Georgia! though i dunno how it'll look cos the font's still the same as im typing now haha..
hmmm...just felt like posting...sumhow it makes me feel connected wif u all..even though i dont get an instant response..haha..
nway to kwa and ouou, i've never really experienced this before..but i still felt quite angry and sad for ouou too..i think it'd have spoilt my whole mood for the rest of the day if i was in ouou's shoes..but i guess, i wont hafta face such problems! cos i think for all the concerts i went to, its all wif u all! haha..so nobody will back out on me..
and i agree wif u kwa, in jc, sumhow nothing's ever confirmed, fixed and reliant..i've learnt to be much more independent too..like i dont mind, or even want to sometimes, being alone..its kinda the safest situation to be in..just you and yourself..no need to put up a front or make the effort to maintain conversations when u're simply not in the mood to..cos when u're moody u dont feel like talking, and when u're with people, people who are not ready and willing to hang out wif a moody you, it just puts those around you off..and they rather hang out wif someone else who's more cheery cos it gives them an easier time, than to stick around you, even to do just nothing, just to make sure u're feeling alright..i guess i haven found any new friends like this in jc..so im really really thankful for u all..and i mean it!
anyway, this week im feeling better! i guess since the incident last friday where my attempt to talk failed and hurt me terribly, it kinda convinced me to just let go, move on and really put the friendship behind me..the more i observe the way i behave now, the more i find it similar to how she behaves..and its just funny how much longer i took than her to reach this indifferent stage..so i guess she gave up so much earlier than me..which further reinforces what i should feel now..
its just a weird week..haha maybe i was too used to feeling depressed..now when i feel indifferent i sumhow fee less human?? just like the saying goes, sorrow makes you human...but i guess too much sorrow makes me go crazy too..and what's the point too?? just feel that school is getting monotonous..but perhaps this tells me im not focusing on all the right things in my life after all..its really the simple stuff that i should focus on..like being able to eat dinner wif my parents and watch tv wif them every night..and even doing homework! which i've been neglecting for very long..i keep telling myself to follow these simple yet important principles in life, yet once i get plagued by just one problem, it seems to cloud my vision of everything else and i choose to focus on the problem instead..
nway went to the library wif ouou and charlene chua today..i think the colour of the place we were sitting at was very nice! like orangey yellow...cos the sun was streaming in! :D then that familiarity wif the both of you..so relaxed, peaceful and secure..
oh kwa! the title of your first entry is from that Life is a Gift book u gave me right! hehe okie i shall quote the quote they put for this week! it says...HAHA.. BLESSED ARE THOSE OF US WHOSE LIVES ARE TOUCHED BY PEOPLE WHO CARE! ok i see kwa is at the same week as me! hahaha ok that was even more stupid..who isnt?! nway kwa, i've been diligently logging my everyday happenings in the book! but sometimes got backlog..like today's thursday and i haven written since monday! so i guess gotta write later! haha
odac chalet tmr..guess its gonna be quite fun..got overnight cycling and all..hope i wont feel antosocial and left out! ouou better not abandon me!
bin's and ouou's parents have gone abroad for honeymoons! so they're learning to be more independent at home now..haha ok that was so random..as u can see im just writing anything that comes to my mind..maybe i should stop here..and save you all from more ranting and nonsense! haha...
love u guys sooo much,
deb
posted by the best friends for life.. @ 11:44 AM
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