the best friends for life: July 2006

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

haiz i feel horrible today. coz my EEEcons was EEEExtremely lousy...haiya so sian la..and the worse thing was it was supposed to be my ok subject and now like that :( nvmnvmnvm we shall all be hardworking girls and get our nice As in 2 mths time...haha oeh u din secretly take a photo of your bro's crush ah? then can show us...and WHY DID U REMOVE MY PREVIOUS POST!!! i'm gonna tell kwa everything still!!! kwa, i put up an msn convo between oeh and i, and she was naming all her crushes, and u were in there too! and she said that she "really liked them" in the past, and even said "Trust me, i want to get married some day and have grand children bouncing on my lap" or sth along that line..haha!

are we having dinner on fri? i miss you all already :(

and tmr's gonna be worse coz i'm taking back my math paper :(

as always,

-tyz-

Monday, July 10, 2006

hello everyone..realised i haven't blogged in ages..so here i am!
ive only told tyz this so i may as well relate this incident..last friday when i went to attend my brother's scholarship ceremony i found myself caught in a most amusing situation (at least it was amusing to me.) for when i entered the lift in orchard hotel with my parents i met my principal!! it actually took me a few moments to recognise him, cos to me he's usually just a distant figure standing on the bridge during morning annoucements..but having noted the trademark red tie and side parting there was no mistaking abt it: it was him!!! it did occur to me if i should step forward to acknowlege him but being the shy modest reticent me i didn't of course..though i had this ridiculous urge to laugh during the long ride up the lift..when the doors opened he disappeared in a flash but he obviously had no idea where the ceremony was held..so that when i was entering the ballroom i looked up to see him loitering at a higher level above us..haha imagine my guilt when i saw him hurriedly entering the room a few minutes later!:s other than that the ceremony was largely a boring affair..except the perfomance segment where i saw, for the first time in my life, my brother dance on stage..couldn't stop laughing throughout the thing..and suan-ed him mercilessly after that though he was actually not bad..
hmm..all in all this has been a rather slack week..guess when the work starts piling we'll get into momentum again..don't know why but even though i noe all that dreaded period will arrive all too soon it seems for now somewhat a distant reality..i don't understand why but i think im in an odd dreamlike state when im alone these days..tired. being caught up in the tangle of my own thoughts and worries can be downright depressing at times..so that sometimes i would rather find all ways and means to avoid thinking.
its getting late..think i'll end here for now! bye
with love
oeh

Friday, July 07, 2006

current life...

ello!!! am kinda bored... hmmmm i feel so sianx now that sch has reopened... i dunno why... wish i cld dispel this kind of sianness asap so that i can focus on my priorities! well, jus very glad that this week is a short and nice week with friday being a half day and thursday where by it's my earliest dismissal time... i think things are really heating up in term3! i can feel the slight pressure now... given that there will b extra lessons for bio and maths for the entire cohort... so my mondays and tuesdays cirriculum are going to be stretched! ummm... but i guess that's the way how thing are going to be like from now onwards... okie yeah we are inching closer and closer to prelims (8 weeks), As (4 mths) well, this also means we will be getting a long break frm studying in 5 mths time... okie... i am writing this hopefully to start my momemtum going after a week's rest... i seem to hav lost the drive! plus, i realise (actually long ago but i jus wanna emphasise haha...) the most important ingredient in watever we do is to have faith in yourself! i mus admit most of the time, i lack this essential piece to complete my entire jigzaw... so i must overcome my weakness! in short, everyone JIAYOU!!! don get too affected by our ct2 results! jus keep on going... :)

yeah my back is okie already! finally after a few days... thanks to u all! :) i really appreciate ur concern...

oh yeah, mayb we cld all do social work together after As! have always yearned to be able to do social work part time in the future... hope my passion for it will not dwindle as i grow older and be more caught up with a pragmatic and fast paced life... as all of u wld hav known, there's really a sense of fulfilment in helping others! i always feel proud of myself thereafter... :)

okie enough of my rambling, cya all SOON!!!

love,
*bin

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

hmmm this is gonna be a short post...in response to kwa's yellow ribbon project thing..ya i think its very meaningful to go be mentor there or sth! cos that time i went for this yellow ribbon dialogue session..at first i tot they got cip for us to do la in the end they just talked about the whole campaign only..they said they din want to let us be mentors under school basis and stuff cos will we still continue the mentorship after we leave jc? then the mentees will get attached to us and all and its not good if we wont be able to commit...

i was thinking of going into social work as a career in the future..so far its the only reasonable job to me that seems really possible..but guess my parents dont want me to be..naturally cos the pay is low and all and after all it doesnt require that much of a good education to be one too..guess they want my education to come to good use too..but see first la..

oh nwayy how did u all do for cts? lemme tell u something EXCITING. haha. i got E(xciting) for my chem la! but kinda expected it too..so nvm..but i've decided to be damn hardworking this term..ok maybe still not as mugger as some of my mugger classmates but at least i'll make myself do some work everyday, as compared to how i could go by one week just slacking all my time at home away..and only try to do a teennnyy weeny bit of tutorials over the weekend haha.

so, we must all start working hard oredy k...dont forget our sat studying pact! kwa join us too leh! its quite conducive there one really! :)

okie this is gonna be a not-so-short post after all haha..i got a bowl of mango in front of me! very sweet and yummy! are u all JEALOUSSS??!? hehe

nway, binbin, get well soon ok! love ya dear! huggsss :)

meet up SOON

with much love as usual (haha!)
deb

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

a compromise

hello! this place is getting kind of stagnant.. mayb cos everyone was busy mugging.. must admit i oso haven't post for a long time too.. so shall tell everyone a bit bout my june hols attachment. think e obs part was great fun, and e attachment part was a memorable and mayb once in a lifetime experience, unless i do join them as a career lah..
obs was 3 days. we were split into 3 groups, but there were v few gals, only 2 or 3 per group, so was quite lucky to be put in e same group as my team mate, but oso means that i pretty much stuck to her most of e time instead of mixing around wif e other gals lah. we stayed out both nites, 1 day sea ex and 1 day high elements. basically pretty short lah. didn't really like sea ex cos i don't really like kayaking. find it quite monotonous and s'pore not say v scenic, and worst of all we cldn't control e direction of e kayak, so kept zigzagging and taking e longest possible time that we were lagging all e time. ended up being e back sweeper and e right and left sweeper at e same time..lol.. but everyone was quite understanding lah, then kept stopping to let us catch up, but that means we didn't get many breaks in between. haha.. we stopped at e quary for lunch, and after lunch kayaked down this river-mangrove like place. it was quite nice cos e scenery was different and kayaking in e river instead of e wide open sea was more fun (mayb cos got less room to zig-zag). e current also made e kayak seem to move much faster too. then e next day high elements was nothing special but think i enjoyed it too, cos didn't get to try it e last time in sec 3.
for e attachment, first day we went to police places, first new phoenix park, then toapayoh npc, then traffic police, then special operations command (SOC). all quite cool, to see e different kinds of police vehicles and weapons they use and carry with em. saw e elite team at soc, supposedly one of e tests to qualify is to run 10km wif 10kg bag. no women allowed, such discrimination.. haha.. and saw e canine unit too. e dogs were really nice and frenly!
2nd day went to scdf places, first e head quaters then to scdf training academy. saw e latest fire vehicles there. then met e dart team and saw all their rescue equipment, including this interesting pulley seat which we got to try. they use it for lifting themselves above e rubble or something. and saw their night vision goggles and oxygen tanks used when they fight fires. and this special microphone thing they use at night to detect survivors breathing under rubble. overall quite cool lah. but like e elite police team, dart team got no females too.. training academy was fun cos they have this 7 storey building called a furnace, and each room simulates a different burning environment, like got one wif decor like hotel, one like bar, one like chemical storage. then e whole place goes on fire and it's super hot, especially when they tried this backdraught thing on us.
last day went to prisons department. went to kaki bukit prisons sch and change prison cluster a. think this was e most memorable part for me lah. e pple at e prisons sch are actually really talented, i suddenly felt sorry for them, e kind of sympathy u feel for disabled/handicapped pple. almost had e urge to go down next time and tutor em or something. and then i wondered why i feel like that towards these prisoners, i mean, they don't deserve such sympathy right. they did something wrong and they are getting wat they deserve by being imprisoned. then y bother spend so much government funds giving them labs to take o's and a's and so many rehabilitative programmes. then wat e head at e prison's sch said during a dialogue gave me an answer.. that logically speaking, these people do not deserve e treatment and funds and effort spent on em, but they need it. and compassion arises not from responding to wat pple deserve but to their needs. thot it makes sense. quite inspired to become a prisons officer (think my parents will flip).. think i'll think twice but i'll give it some consideration too. at e closing ceremony for this whole session, which was held at e prisons auditorium, a grp of inmates which formed a band performed for us, and seriously, they are really gd. they're talented pple. e singer, e drummer, all of em.. so for those who are un-inspired still, must support yellow-ribbon project k, unlock e 2nd prison and let these pple assimilate back to society.. (sounds like they brainwashed me right.. ) nono, i'm convinced..
e compromise.. this disturbing feeling that i've seriously screwed up this block tests.. leaving almost half e chem paper blank and stupidly choosing an eco essay qn cos of a mental blk (forgot that voltage gated channels were proteins). think i'll get a few marks out of 20 for e few lines of eco related stuff i wrote. completely nonsense and non-biological..sigh, i dun wish to get back any of e papers. think it'll shock myself despite how much i'm expecting it, to have grades dropping by many bands before prelims isn't gd. think i shall just be motivated to study harder and be contented wif e many experiences i gained during e attachment..
this has been a long narrative.. shall go off now
~charl

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