it's almost july
haven't blogged for ages, cos i always feel too lazy to. actually i still am, but i'm a bit bored now too.can't believe the many things that have happened in the past few months. suddenly the uncertain future became certain, by default, because time just continues going by and decisions are made just to meet deadlines, hardly out of certainty. at least that's how i ended up deciding to stay here instead of going overseas. cos i wanted to decide before going on my holiday to alaska, even tho the deadline wasn't due until i came back. but things only got slightly better after i submitted that decision. i suddenly thot i will miss physics and maths, the 2 subjects i found easiest and least stressful throughout sec sch and jc. i somehow just felt that the logical way things worked in those subjects fitted my style of thinking. and then the outcomes of a few more applications seemed to make things fall into place a bit, which slightly comforted me into thinking that my decision was according to God's plan after all. at least i hope so. i guess for now i shall just have to walk in faith that God will see me thru e future, no matter how tough the studying or work gets..
(on this note, i'd like to sincerely thank a few pple who helped me with my uni applications.. like my parents and sisters who prayed for me throughout the whole application and decision process, my granduncle who advised me bout interviews, my uncle who helped with hospital attachments, deb, who helped me with the sgh attachment and cca form and so many more things (i cannot express how deeply touched i am at your complete selflessness in helping a fren.. i find it amazing the way u never acknowledged the idea of competition or anything like that.. i dunno how to put it lah, but i'm just really really touched..i hope i can return a fraction of the favours u've done for me whenever the need arises), ying oeh ouou and steph for encouraging me before the numerous interviews...)
spent the last few months working and going on holiday.. work has been extremely tough and stressful. for one, i found the shift work in itself stressful. cos i'm a rather routine person. then i have to sleep at 10pm if i got 5am shift the next morning, which i'm totally not used to. but i still like to sleep late and wake up late on my off days. so the whole sleeping cycle becomes rather chaotic. then i always kana bullied into not getting the off days i want, or having to do the really odd shifts, cos i just don't dare to talk back to authority or simply give in. this has been a huge learning point for me, tho i must say i'm still not v gd at it. then there are pple who try to steal commission, ask me to do all the stupid saikang work. in the end i just get really irritated with myself for letting myself be bullied in such a way that i'd end up black facing the person the whole day, something i'm oddly proud of doing in a way..haha. sounds ironic eh.. mayb that's y e personality test ying sent around seemed to describe me so aptly.. haha.. must say i've seen the most un-innocent real world thru this job.
glad to say i won't be at it for much longer. i'm gonna find more meaningful ways to spend my time before sch starts.. i wanna spend lotsa time with my frens, we can meet up in the day since i'd be joining the jobless gang soon, more time with my grandparents and that sort of stuff.. i guess a specific incident this long hols has thot me a thing or 2 about spending time meaningfully with others and cherishing the pple around me..
shall continue other day.. meanwhile, looking forward to my off day tmr (:
posted by the best friends for life.. @ 8:43 PM
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