an eye-opening week & a boring week
haven't had the chance to blog earlier cos i was rushing to complete all the scholarship essays. but i wanted to blog bout my week at a&e, so i shall have to summarise and recall from the now not-so-fresh memory.a&e was fun! it got a bit dull after a couple of days cos the cases were all v similar, but on the whole, i wldn't have minded if it was a bit longer. most of the drs there were rather nice, or at least they weren't un-nice, and those who were un-nice cld be nice if they felt like it too. goes to show how moods can swing when u have such a hectic job. most drs we spoke too told us the usual thing bout medicine.. u sure u want or not?.. don't do medicine!!.. etc. but one of the snr drs was quite encouraging lah. and despite how they say it's hard to achieve much in your personal life when u're a dr, most of them, at least the older ones, are married. mayb it's just easier for guys.. and most of the drs there are from rj! just goes to show how true the fact that rj pple tend to get into med more than hc pple is. not that i really mind. just nv saw it so "real" in my life, in that sense..
the cases there are all rather similar. old pple with chest pains. it's almost like an extended gp clinic. mayb accident, but hardly emergency. except for that one or two occasional cases. which i unfortunately always manage to just miss, either by slacking in the lounge or going for lunch! concluded we bring peace to the a&e department. exciting things only happen when we're not around. then the treatment is also quite standard. take bp, blood tests, set plugs, take x-ray, send to observation. most end there i think.
guess the most memorable and meaningful experience for me was this asthma attack case. basically, this malay (or was he indian) guy came in with serious sob (dr's short form for short of breath..lol) and v severe chest pain due to the asthma attack. apparently he had some alcohol too which prob aggravated the situation. anyway, cos of his condition, he was given immediate attention and a gas mask to help him control his breathing. then suddenly he started calling out loudly "hallelujah, hallelujah, Holy Spirit come down on me! God is the most powerful! God take me cos i 100% believe in you..." i was taken by surprise and loss for words. i had not seen anything quite like this before. so the three of us continued standing there watching. then i asked the drs if he knew what he was saying, and they said he prob had too much to drink. but after that he started telling us stories and i'm quite sure he was pretty sane and conscious of wat he was saying. He told us he went to prison for a few years and was converted there, that God has saved him and given him a new life. He was also pretty excited bout one of his daughters getting married in a church soon, and said we reminded him of his daughters (i wld think in terms of age maybe?) All this time, he was gasping in pain, and saying he knew his heart wasn't normal, and without the gas mask he knew he wouldn't be able to breathe. Yet, he said he was unafraid to die because he believed God will take him home. All this while, I knew i should have offered to pray for him, i knew it wld prob be of great comfort and reassurance to him, and i've heard that my church fren had done that often when the patient consented. yet, being my meek, timid self, i cldn't bring myself too. sigh...He asked if we were Christians and i told him i was. He told me to share my faith with my other 2 frens (deb and aw yong) and i just cldn't say no to him. it's gonna be one of those things i've said yes to and find it difficult to deliver later. After that, he offered to pray for us, and that moment, i felt so absolutely bad. cos it shld have been the other way round! i guess i learnt a lesson bout my faith. cos here was this man in great great pain, thinking he was going die any moment, and he was going to share his faith to as many pple as possible till his very last breath! whereas here i am, alive and perfectly healthy, and not doing anything! Indeed, i have been hardworking for myself, studying and what not last yr, but i've not been very hardworking for God. mayb becos it's i don't like to impose religion on others, mayb cos i don't want to appear to be insensitive, mayb cos i simply lack the courage, and mayb these are all just excuses. nonetheless, i'm not gonna do any hard core selling, i don't really think that's the way either. a person shld discover his/her faith for his/herself. but in any case, if any of u are curious, can come to church with me one weekend. i don't promise i have all the answers tho. i'm still very much but a child in this sense. i'll be having my church confirmation this sunday so if u're interested in coming, do feel free too!
ok, hope u all aren't too put off by all this in any way. that just so happened to be the most meaningful event in my last-week. or mayb in this year..haha..
and as usual i won't finish my post as usual. it's getting a bit long. looking forward to seeing you all on sunday!
posted by the best friends for life.. @ 11:19 PM
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